I did it. Today was the day. I took off my pajamas, put on a bra and some jeans, and went out into the world. Not only that, but I actually SOCIALIZED. I felt like an actual human being. It was liberating! I started off my morning like I have been for the past week and a half. I sat outside with a cup of coffee and my book. Read a few chapters and logged onto one of the limited social media websites that I have and saw a picture of one of my best friends from when I was a teenager. I thought to myself, “I wonder if she still lives out here”, and I did it. A bold move for someone like me, I sent her a direct message. As she had pointed out, it wasn’t as scandalous as some of the songs that are out there at the moment. Just a simple ‘Hello, do you still live in the area?’ She had replied that yes, she did in fact still live here in the city and I told her that I had just recently moved back home. I suggested we get together because, well why not? The weather was windy and I was feeling it. One thing led to another and then next thing you know, bam! I’m pulling up to the cutest little house surrounded by plants and flowers in the yard. I didn’t even get my nervous sweats or the shaky hands that I normally do when I’m going out in public. It was as easy as breathing. We sat under the car port and talked for a few hours while the cutest kids ran around. Asking me questions and showing off for the new person like all kids do. I actually enjoyed myself and sooner than I would have liked, it was time to go back home so my room mate could have his car back and head into work. We made plans to do it again relatively soon which is another new thing for me. But it was a good day nonetheless and I’m actually looking forward to another get together.
I know it seems like an easy, every day thing for most people but you have absolutely no idea how big of an accomplishment this is for me. It’s like someone winning a gold medal, or crossing a finish line when you didn’t think you would complete the trek at all. I’m proud of myself. I can actually go to bed tonight and feel like I’ve done something. It probably seems really silly, but I’m happy. And that’s all that matters in the end, right?