Spiraling out of control. That's the only way I can explain how things are going right about now. Listening to my sister's plans for moving, dealing with hostility at work, being -for the first time in 4 years- single. The heartache and stress of it all is overwhelming. It feels like there's nowhere to run. … Continue reading Speechless.
The time has come. You never think you're going to be one of the one's affected by Trump's "send them back to Mexico and let's build a wall" deal. But here it is. Slapping me in the face, repeatedly. It's really not fair to rip families apart just because they were not born here. If … Continue reading Deported.
Rejection. Why is rejection such a bitter pill to swallow? Why is it that death is preferable to heartbreak and rejection? Giving up is easy, it's living that's so hard. My anxiety is through the damn roof right now. I go back to work tomorrow. Face some of my fear's tomorrow. Maybe get fired tomorrow. … Continue reading Sifting.
That's what my friend described me as. And not lefty as in left handed, she means lefty as in Left-Winged. Democrat. Or as many of my Right-Wing friends like to call me, a "Socialist". That last part makes me laugh. I don't know, maybe it's just completely.... 'Left' of me, but I don't believe that … Continue reading The Lefty Who Likes Cats.
Sometimes things don't hit us right away. Like grief, for instance. It can come out of nowhere; lying in bed at night or dead smack in the middle of a grocery store. Some people linger on it and others let it roll right off their shoulders. I wish I could be the one to let … Continue reading Kismet
A semicolon is used when a writer could have chosen to end the sentence, but didn’t. The semicolon also means ‘my story isn’t over yet’ to people who suffer depression and have thought about ending their lives. Unfortunately for one of my good friends, his story ended on a sunny Sunday afternoon. It is pretty […] … Continue reading A re post.
Congratulations! Today is your day. You're off to Great Places! You're off and away! You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the guy who'll decide where to go. You'll … Continue reading Oh , the Places You’ll Go
"It's about priorities, Dexter. You're going to have to choose which one is your mistress and which one is your wife. And more importantly, which one comes first." -Harry Morgan from Dexter This quote really hit home to me just now while I was watching TV. I never had the option between being the wife … Continue reading The Mistress or The Wife
Today was very boring and bland. I was supposed to have plans but those were canceled. I carefully and casually made myself up all for it to go down the tubes. I guess that was partly my fault. Instead I went and picked up yet another new medication. This time it's Ambien. I took one … Continue reading Boring and Bland.
I've been trying really really hard to relax. Who would have known it would be such a difficult thing to accomplish. Relaxation. Shouldn't that shit just come easy? I'm out of one of my meds, the anti-psychotic. And my anxiety is bad. My insurance won't cover a refill until tomorrow, which is complete bullshit if … Continue reading Ramblings.