Have you ever met a liar? I mean a true one. A person where every single word out of their mouth is untrue? I have. For the first time in my life I’ve met a person where, no matter what sentence they form, is false. It’s the most frustrating thing. I mean, we all lie. That’s just a natural thing I think. But why lie about where you worked. Or people being sick. Or people dying. What’s the fucking point? And don’t they know that everyone sees right through their bullshit? How can they not know that they are fooling NOONE? It is the worst thing imaginable. I hate that this person takes something minor and turns it into something SO big just to make it look real. And the sad thing is, when they finally decide to tell the truth on something, not one person is going to believe them.
A part of me wants to, well, just be me. I want to tell them to just shut the fuck up. I want to tell them that they have nobody fooled. I just want to call them a damn liar. Now I know that the best course of action is to ignore it. But now their lies are personally affecting me. I guess in reality they have been affecting me for a while now. I have to pick up their slack and work for them and I’m constantly being pushed to the brink of just losing my shit while they just get to walk around and chill and act like they are doing something important. That’s something else that just gets under my skin and crawls.
I really hope that I have the strength to keep it together for a little while longer. Because keeping my mouth shut is by far the hardest thing that I have to deal with. And that’s saying something because I have cancer.