It’s been a while since my last post. I’ve had some changes, including a few minor road blocks. For instance, I am no longer employed. I was out of my meds for a few weeks which made me pretty much intolerable. I’m still looking for a job and I had my doctor switch me up for something that might actually work for me. So far it’s just left me with a detached feeling, which I have been told is a good sign that it will be working properly. Oh, also I got engaged.
Yes, you have read that correctly. The woman who vowed to the world that she would never do said thing, is officially getting hitched. Life feels perfect. I’m in DC with my best friend, staring at my ring and telling myself “Someone actually wants to deal with me for the rest of their life”. It’s surreal. The only thing that could possibly be better is if I had my man and our kid here too. I feel so incredibly happy in this moment. Partly due to the fact that I am getting married, partly due to my atmosphere. I love it here. It’s pure bliss, almost like it’s meant to be. I miss my newfound family back at home, but that’s about it. My heart feels full and I couldn’t be more grateful. I have never been a lucky person, but for once I feel like the sun is shining.
For the first time in a long time, I’m happy.