That's what those 6 tests said. I couldn't believe my fucking eyes. I blinked. Blinked again. Then I couldn't see and I heard this hiccuping sound, had no clue what was going on until I realized that hey- I'm losing my shit in the Walmart handicapped bathroom. I faintly heard my name being called over … Continue reading Positive.
I've had some really amazing things happen as well as some pretty shitty things happen since I've last written. I guess I'll start off with some of the good stuff. While my assistant manager was on vacation, my store manager trusted me enough to leave me over operations. Which was a huge deal for me. … Continue reading Selfish.
It's been a minute. Things have been very up and down. I don't really know how I'm feeling right now. I guess after last night, a little used up and sad. Intermittently numb. A tad bit stupid. Fucking up is a hobby of mine. Not necessarily one I enjoy, but something I find myself doing regularly. … Continue reading Indescribable.
A person can only be strong for so long. And each individual's breaking point is all different. Some cry. Some shoot up movie theatre's. Some take their own life. Rock bottom can bring out the very worst in people. I believe I have been there before. I believe that I am here again. However, I … Continue reading Falling Short.
Yesterday, I let my anger out on someone. I finally was pushed to the point of no return. I haven't been that angry in years. And I mean it, YEARS. I said some really hateful things. Thing's that I didn't mean. Things I wish that I could take back. I never wanted to be that … Continue reading If you’re reading this, I’m sorry…
I would take physical pain any day of the week to get rid of the emotional pain I've been experiencing on a daily basis. Today was the day. The final straw. I gave back everything he's asked for, everything he's bought me. I no longer have any ties to this human being. A part of … Continue reading The Final Straw.
Its weird. You find things when you least expect it. Something really good, really positive, could be happening for me. I didn't go out looking. It came to me. Now, where it will end up? I have no idea. But I'm going to stay positive about it. I need something good for once. -B
Why? Why are the only men that are interested in me the ones who already have wives or long term girlfriends? And they're not even interested in me. They just want to Fuck me and move on. What do I look like? Whatever happened to genuinely caring for a person and wanting to be with … Continue reading Why?
I've been spending a lot of time with my niece, nephew, and sister lately. Partly because were all having a tough go and we are able to distract one another. And partly because we all know the inevitable; these days together are numbered. This is the only family I have, and to know that soon … Continue reading Fam(ily)
I have work in 40 minutes. Part of me is ready, grateful to be doing something to take my mind off of things. The other part of me wants to hightail it back home and hide in my bedroom, under the covers. Since I'm already in the parking lot, I know that I will be … Continue reading Mercy.